Dilemma..... Fantasy or Reality

... So, it is day xx..... in this beautiful ancient city and I am tuned in to this beautiful radio station.... Pondering what I have been through so far... Most especially my love interest... Those I can't have... And those that cannot have me.... I wondered why this world is so unfair.... You want something and that which you want something else too! Not you obviously.
why can't we just have that which we want and chill.... Why do we need to struggle to get that which we are not even totally sure we want or deserve....I was talking to someone I don't really have any affection for but who is crazy for me.... And I could sense his frustration... He tirelessly pours his heart out... But what can I do.... I wish I could return his love but that would mean lying to myself.... This brings me to the most important question of the night..   How many of us lie to ourselves on a daily and is it worth it?
We are forced to choose either follow your heart or stick with the heart that has chosen you even if it a horrible lie